Posted by Donna Louise on June 4, 2006, at 5:56:28
In reply to Re: Do you get angry easily?, posted by Deneb on May 30, 2006, at 21:53:45
When I was a kid, my mother would barge into my bedroom and start telling me that it was all my fault that her life sucked, basically. We would get in screaming matches about it. It wasn't until I was 16 and my boyfriend witnessed one of those bouts that he was able to ask me why was I fighting with her since she was drunk. I didn't know she was drunk. It was like, oh, duh, no wonder. And that is the last I fought with her. After I moved out I stopped talking to her at all after 5pm and that way we had fairly good relationship comparatively speaking. My dad, would store it and then have a rage which was terrifying. So my early experiences with anger were not healthily modeled to say the least. I hate expressions of anger, I am afraid of them but a long time ago I asked my husband when he was mad at me to please tell me he still loved me and that he wasn't going anywhere and then I was reassured enough to hear what his point was. I get easily enraged, I remember being under 5 the first time it happened and once I remember blacking out and falling off my bed I got so angry that a hair roller (we used to roll our hair..) wouldn't act right. It is one of the first things to tell me my meds aren't working. I am having a little trouble with it right now actually. But Ihaven't taken a hatchet to a hose when it gets a kink in it. Yet. And it has been over 20 years since I put my hand or foot through the wall.
Donna
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