Posted by llrrrpp on June 10, 2006, at 10:32:18
In reply to Re: I need a routine, posted by Phillipa on June 9, 2006, at 22:26:31
I'm getting a fairly consistent message here.
The message is that I should try to make small changes first, and work up to large changes.
Why do y'all have to be so *sensible*??
Can't I just live with my fantasy for one day that I can wake up, feel like a million bucks and change my life? I didn't say anything like I was going to write a dissertation chapter everyday until I was done at the end of the week? I didn't say that I was going to lose a pound a day and enter a body-building competition for July 4th. I didn't say that I wanted to completely change my life.
Hmm. part of me is kind of hurt. These consistent messages from kind people like Nina and Larry, and Phillipa kind of make me feel like I'm destined for failure. Why can't I do this stuff? I mean, I've already written down a plan. If I don't at least attempt it, haven't I failed already? I would rather try and fail than fail by not trying. Well, whatever.
I guess I'm just pissed at myself for letting my healthy habits crumble while my mental health was on a slide. I really do feel like I'm on the upswing. Two steps forward, 1.9 steps back. Yes, the progress is slow. I was hoping maybe I could speed it up, and get a little support while doing so.
too much to ask I guess
too much to expect from myself, I guess
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