Posted by corafree on September 24, 2006, at 23:01:13
In reply to Re: Who R All You People? » corafree, posted by Lindenblüte on September 23, 2006, at 16:44:28
<It's an ordinary place, but wonderful people live there. It always feels... right, somehow. I need that feeling nowadays. Everything feels wrong.>
I think I feel the same as you recently. It's been 'ballooning'! Things feel wrong in my IRL environment. (I've told my closest IRL peeps and they tell me to make the best of it. Most hurtful really. Especially from my mother.) In my past, if I wasn't happy, I'd moooooooooove on.
I feel like I'm at some sort of fork in the road, BUT (THE BIG B) 'I'm not as physically strong as I once was' and I'm afraid I won't be able to take the road 'where everything just feels right' due to physical incapacity! I've been crazy 'physically' ill and MDs aren't taking me seriously, but instead, focusing on 'this' area of my life as the 'culprit'.
Have med appts tomorrow and Tues, and I'm upset about going alone. I feel like there's strength in numbers. Even 2, better than 1, when you feel you're not being heard.
I hope this explains why sometimes 'I'm social social' and other times a bit 'anti-social social'. When I don't feel well physically, it's 'a real bad scene bein' me'. I'm all about running, jumping, and dancin'!
Hey .. I could change my name to volvo(?); or expand on it a bit. I've had a handful of them ... 'loved 'em all and they felt safe too!' I'm kidding, about the name part anyway, I think ;)
love, cf
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