Posted by karen_kay on May 3, 2007, at 7:45:36
In reply to Re: oh dear yet again... » karen_kay, posted by MCK on May 2, 2007, at 22:34:29
you did notice though, you referred to me as perfect(ly). the (ly) part doesn't matter really, i pay more attention to the part in front of that. thank you.
you didn't sound (or read) cross at all dear. promise. i just wanted to be certain you knew i didn't think you were throwing around dx's and such; that it was my issue, not you accusing or what have you.
about that constant question: geez, does it ever stop? i'd like, just for one day, to stop thinking 'why do i do so little for others and so much for myself?' which only makes me feel worse. (sure, perhaps another subject entirely, possibly not.) most days, i'm the greatest person around (not most days, most minutes), but it tends to get me thinking 'ok, you've got to be a sociopath to think you're entitled to treat people the way you do.' and 'why don't you do more..' ect, ect....
oh, years of therapy and i stil haven't figured it out. i do love myself. hell, i'm pretty much the best person i know (well, you're pretty high up there in my book right now you know, but still i am rather fond of myself.), yet at the same time, i see so many others doing so much adn it gets me thinking...
and is it ever possible to know the harm done, really though? i guess i'll only know when my duckie's old enough to be telling me 'well, my therapist said.....' or when ' the verdict read in the first degree I hollered lordy lordy have a mercy on me' (sorry, johnny cash fan? at least a cocaine fan?)
please do entice me to propose. i'm rather fond of a broken heart, i must say!
and have a great day.
fondly,
kk
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