Posted by Deneb on February 14, 2008, at 1:58:23
Life is too hard. I'm a loser. I don't want to face things. I want to die. Can I just ignore that my friends and family will miss me?
I'm selfish. I'm lazy. I want the easy way out.
I can't handle change or stress.
I'm all over the place. One moment I planning my future, the next I'm planning my death.
I feel impulsive, like I can OD when I feel really depressed. If I still feel like this on the weekend, I hope I'll just end things. :-( I know ODing wouldn't kill me. If I want to die I'll probably hang myself.
I hope my sister isn't reading.
There are things that might be fun, seeing Dr. Bob again, meeting with Babblers in DC...but I feel bad NOW.
Probably people don't take me seriously anymore. I always say I'm going to kill myself. I don't even know when I'm serious. All I know is I feel bad NOW, and I want to be dead.
I'm sure I'll have good times again in the future, but I've really ruined my life. I feel bad now. I hope I die in my sleep.
poster:Deneb
thread:812595
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20080130/msgs/812595.html