Posted by Solstice on December 12, 2010, at 20:42:23
In reply to Am I just now becoming a real person?, posted by Christ_empowered on December 12, 2010, at 20:32:55
> Has anyone else felt this way? As if you're just now (or maybe at some point in the past) becoming an actual human being, with all the doubts, emotions, and depth that being truly human involves? Is it growing up, or something else? I'm not saying I was some sort of talking monkey before, but...something was missing. Depth, I suppose. I'm not uber-profound now, but I think I'm decidedly less vapid than I was in the past.
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> Anyway, I was wondering if other people could relate.
Hi CE..I think you're describing a whole process that is part 'growing up' - but even more, I think it has to do with what happens when we become united with ourself.. (integrated?) - when we self-reflect.. when we find ourselves in a place where we are able to think more deeply.
I think trauma, as well as substance addictions, can interrupt that process. Maybe it means you are achieving substantial healing that has allowed a part of you that was hiding under a rock to breathe and become more alive? I'm just speculating - we all have such different 'stories.' But I do think I can relate to what you're talking about. Life is a journey - and everybody is at such different places. I don't think many find what you're talking about easily.. and i think some people live their whole lives without ever thinking or feeling deeply. So I think it's worth celebrating that you are discovering deeper places within yourself!
Solstice
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