Posted by arrie on August 26, 2004, at 21:47:09
In reply to Re: SOFAR HOW ARE YOU?, posted by sofarsogood on August 26, 2004, at 19:48:24
HI SOFAR, SO GLAD YOU ARE OUT FROM UNDER FINALLY. IT'S GOOD IN A WAY YOU HAVENT POSTED, GUESS THAT SHOWS YOU HAVE RESUMED YOUR LIFE AND LEFT THIS BEHIND. THATS WHAT I LOOK FORWARD TO. WELL, MY FRIEND LANI AND I WERE POSTING ON ANOTHER FORUM AND WE WERE ASKED TO LEAVEPROBABLY BECAUSE OUR THREADS HAD SO MANY READS, THE MODERATOR GOT JEALOUS. IT WAS REALLY UPSETTING, WE JUST GOT FLAMED RIGHT AND LEFT BECAUSE WE WERE MAKING PROGRESS AS OPPOSED TO RELAPSING LIKE THE OTHER 985 OF THE POSTERS, JUST MORE EVIDENCE TO ME THAT I DONT LIKE NO HATE THIS WHOLE DRUGGIE CULTURE.
I JUST BROKE MY FOLLOW UP APPT FOR SUB, I STARTED ON 7/9, REMEBER I HAD TO GO OUT OF TOWN, HOTEL, THE WHOLE BIT. I HAVE ABOUT 60 PILLS LEFT AND NOW I HAVE TO GET DOWN TO SERIOUS BIZ ABOUT REDUCING. I AM ON 6 MGS A DAY, I DO SEEM TO HAVE ALITTLE TROUBLE TAKING IT DOWN, BUT HAVE TO NOW ELSE WILL BE SOL WHEN I AM OUT. SET UP AN APPT FOR 9/23 AS A SAFETY NET, BUT STILL REALLY DONT WANT TO EVER GO BACK THERE. THE NURSE ACTED SORTA BIT--- WITH ME REGARDING MY BROKEN APPT. I WOULD HAVE LOVE TO HAVE GONE REALLY FOR THE SUPPORT GROUP THING, BUT NEED TO TAKE CARE OF SOME OTHER THINGS FOR SON AND HIS HEALTH, SO THEY WERE NOT MY FIRST PRIORITY. I HATE THE WAY THEY GET YOU IN THE CORNER WITH THIS MED ON THE REFILL ISSUES. ANYWAY THE OTHER FORUM JUST HAD SO MANY COMPLAINERS ABOUT SUB SAYING IT WAS SO HARD, WORSE THAN VIC TO GET OFF. I JUST DONT BELIEVE THAT, MAYBE CAUSE I DONT WANT TO, IT WONT DO ME ANY GOOD TO GO INTO MY TAPER THINKING NEGATIVE YOU KNOW. SO I AM GONNA GO DOWN TO 4 MGS A DAY FOR A BIT, THEN 3MGS, THEN 1, THEN EVERY OTHER OTHER DAY AND HOPEFULLY I CAN WALK ON MY OWN TWO FEET AFTER THAT. IT HAS ONLY BEEN ABOUT 7-8 WEEKS ON IT FOR ME, YOU WERE ON 3 MONTHS CORRECT. I KNOW YOU HAD A GOOD CLEAN BREAK. DONT GO BACK TO THE VIC, BUT IF YOU SLIP, DONT FREAK OUT, NOTHING CAN MAKE YOU USE THAT HEAVY AGAIN IF YOU STAY IN CONTROL, BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT HELL IT IS TO GET OFF. I JUST THINK IT HELPS TO HAVE A PHYSCOLOGY IN MIND FOR RELAPSE, LIKE OONCE DOES NOT MEAN I AM NOT CLEAN SO I CAN JUST TAKE ANOTHER ONE. BUT AS YOU SAY IDIOT, PLEASE JUST STAY, NO RUN AWAY FROM IT. MY ONLINE PLACE EMAILS, I COULD ORDER EASY, BUT I DONT WANT TO, NOT EVEN. SORRY THIS IS SO LONG, LOVE TO HEAR BACK FROM YOU AND LANI WOULD LIKE YOUR STORY OF SUCCESS TOO. WARMEST REGARDS ARRIE
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