Posted by partlycloudy on September 16, 2004, at 12:43:26
I wanted to let youse guys know that I'm trying EMDR treatment for my drinking behaviour. Since all my drinking is done in hiding (closets are good if there is company in the house), the therapist has approached it as an anxiety coping behaviour. Normally if I'm alone I will run, not walk, to get a drink in me as soon as I get home from work. Then the evening quickly degenerates and I say all sorts of bizarre things to people who call me.
These first dew days have been a surprise. The panic and anxiety starts even before I leave work - I suppose because I would be thinking where I was going to stop on the way home for supplies. I feel ill, my head is spinning, heart is trying to beat itself out of my chest - and I just drive the rest of the way home. I tell myself that I can deal with the discomfort.
My evenings are l-o-n-g without booze to do that time warp thing.
Just thought I would share.
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