Posted by HoldenYosarian on February 13, 2005, at 0:34:51
In reply to Re: Has anyone here effectively quit a coke habit?, posted by Sebastian on January 6, 2005, at 21:33:41
> figure this one out for me. Every time I smoked crack. I would go nuts smoking and smoking all night. Then I would just get tired and want to stop, even though its all around and every one is still smoking, I want to go home take a shower, brush my teeth, sleep?? I will just stop it, and not touch it again for years or so, just when it comes up. I say hey maybe that would be fun. I do it and want to stop again. I have had none for atleast 3-4 years. But my real problem is pot, I just can't stop, can't live without it, smoke all day, 20 joints to myself. Go nuts when I can't have it. Whats up with this? Oh, I tried some plain coke once, loved it, but I never got enough to satisfy my experience, so I dream about tring some. Weird..
Effectively quit a coke habit? You CAN quit anything, the question is is likelihood, based on characteristics of the drug (and, of course yourself, your own body chemistry, etc).
I'm 33 now. I'll tell you just a little bit of my story as it relates to crack/coke. I started using coke at 13. It wasn't a problem (and I had access to an unlimited supply of pharmaceutical grade, because my father was a doctor, and he used, too). Not only did I not become addicted, but it never crossed my mind except on the odd occassion when my friends and I were feeling particularly wild and dipped into his stash, probably only once every 4 or five months. Around the same time I started smoking crack. I did it for the adrenalin rush of getting it--the danger involved in going into "those" parts of town and risking my life and freedom to get it. It didn't really seem to do anything for me, otherwise. This continued, although with no regularity, for about three years. By the time I got to University, I was a pot head, and fairly heavy drinker. But the issue of coke never came up. Sometimes someone would have it at a party and I'd do a few lines, and that would be it. Not a thought about it, otherwise. After University, I moved cross country, and in the period of 3 years probably used coke (powder) twice. Again, no more thought about it. When i returned to my home state, I gave up drinking, and just smoked pot. Then someone I worked with happened to have a powder connection, so I started doing it a little more regularly. I had the money. Of course, the old adrenaline rush thing came up, again, and I went to the old "hood" to get some crack--just for the cloak and dagger effect. Suddenly I couldn't stop. Nothing else mattered. I ended up losing my job, spending $20,000 in about 6 months or less---(and then about the same amount of my girlfriend's money) and ended up living in my car. That wasn't enough, apparantly. I still needed more, always, constantly, without end. I ended up being charged with check forgery in order to supply my habit and being incarcerated for it. That's the very short version. So, it started out innoucuously enough... and stayed that way for years. Until suddenly, for no apparent reason...wham. I was a crackhead. Just like that--my life a constant race against my addiction, avoiding dealers, looking for dealers, thievery, and a completely transient existence.
I'm glad you can just decide to go home now...that you don't need any more, or think about it, for years. But that's exactly how I started out.
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