Posted by antigua on March 4, 2005, at 10:16:35
In reply to And it's Day 2... » just so sad, posted by partlycloudy on March 4, 2005, at 7:10:14
I've been out of touch lately, but I wanted to throw my support your way once I read this thread. You can do it! I know you can. I have faith in you. I've been working on this for 20 months now. I've certainly had my share of slips, but I just keep on trying. Once you get some time behind you (and you've been there, right?) you will feel more confident.
I've had to watch out for success too, though, when my life seems to be going relatively "fine" and then I have a really bad episode. (But it's been more than six months now!) That's the way it works for me sometimes. My T pointed out success is probably more dangerous than failure for me, as it triggers so many things. You just have to be constantly vigilent, at least in the beginning I have to be. Sometimes when I'm in the car (so nobody can hear me) and the urge is so overwhelming, I just scream at the addiction monster and drown him out (of course it's a he) so that I can drive past the liquor store w/o stopping.
Just pick yourself up and keep trying.
Sorry to sound bossy, but I know how much you want this. You have done so incredibly well this past year and I have faith in you. Remember, you are not alone, and other people have licked this and you can too.best,
antigua
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