Posted by AMD on March 31, 2005, at 22:26:50 [reposted on April 2, 2005, at 8:33:56 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Help! Various questions..., posted by gromit on March 12, 2005, at 1:43:41
Third cocaine binge this weekend. It's so lovely, isn't it, sitting around with "friends," snorting your life away? I'm on day four post the binge, and still feeling radioactive. And I'm worried that this time I truly overdid it, as I read about how how cocaine can cause permanent, lifelong brain damage in one night. I'm trying to concentrate, to test myself. I can read lucidly (even more quickly than usual), but I feel like I'm just skimming the words; I'm not really absorbing them for analysis. And, based on a self-assessment, I think I'm in the midst of a mixed episode. I just want to type, type, type away, rattling off thoughts and emotions at an incredible pace. Work recall is off -- I felt better able to express my feelings and thoughts a few weeks ago after the second binge than I do right now. It's damn frustrating.
I feel like I've done it this time, I've caused permanent neurological sequelae. Ugh! I just want to be clear-headed again.
My psychiatrist prescribed Seroquel today; I hope it's enough to straighten out my thoughts. But I'm so tempted to have a drink tonight instead ...
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