Posted by just so sad on April 11, 2005, at 10:44:12
In reply to Re: Silence banished!! (poss. TRIGGER) » just so sad, posted by partlycloudy on April 11, 2005, at 7:35:51
Wow - you articulate yourself very well. I totally understand that some days the "drink/carrot" thought doesn't appear as a two-headed monster, but rather a kitten peaking around the corner, which you can gently put away. Other days, upon WAKING UP, I know the monster is there and is dragging me through the day to that inevitable drink...and I feel powerless so I shrug and pour. But, I had a big experience this weekend - my son, who has just been diagnosed with depression, was drinking alone in his room while gaming with his buddies on-line. It was late (3 am!) and I gave him heck and he got really angry (way out of character for my gentle-man (he's 19 almost) and when I asked if he'd been drinking, he denied it. But he came up to our room after and apologized and admitted he had been and he'd done it before, so he and I made a pact that neither of us would ever drink alone again. I realized how can I say one thing, but practise another?? He sees me drinking alone almost every night. Until now. So yesterday was a brand new DAY 1 and I'm feeling more committed than ever before. There - I matched you ramble for ramble!! Hugs and stay strong.
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