Posted by AMD on June 17, 2005, at 16:03:59
In reply to Re: Fell off the wagon ... » AMD, posted by TamaraJ on June 17, 2005, at 15:42:43
Tamara,
Thank you for your message. I worry that I jeopardize my future from my drinking because of its effects on my brain, but the true danger is probably the work missed, money spent, and relationships ruined.
I am hoping that within another day or two I will be O.K. It's these first days, when you feel lousy, depressed, and unable to focus, that the fear it's more than transient rears its head.
Like you, my memory is generally extremely sharp. I can't remember names for the life of me, but the esoterica of various technologies, the syntax of C, Perl, and other programming languages, and the commands necessary to run an Oracle database -- I have no trouble remembering these with ease. I guess that's what I freak out about. One day I fear I'll wake up and be unable to do my job.
I guess the fact that I'm communicating today is a good sign. But the true test will be putting my executive functions to use.
May I ask what you do?
And you really drank to excess -- and blacking out, passing out, etc. -- for /years/ and are fine now? That at least gives me hope. I hate it when I pass out from alcohol. I know the other day I was on a mission, drinking quickly and excessively (as indicated by the blackout, which I believe is triggered not by BAL level alone but by the speed at which one raises that BAL to an unacceptable level).
My eyes feel heavy today, and I feel ADD-ish. I hope this passes as well.
amd
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