Posted by platinumbride on July 3, 2005, at 20:34:58
First of all, I don't care what anyone says...some people (like me) can get high from tramadol. That is what I have been doing ever since I ran out of vicodin, which I started abusing in January because I was depressed and the drug made me feel quite a bit better, and nobody was the wiser for my having taken it, save a few "I'm so tired" moments.
I've pretty much given up on ADs for various reasons, but the opiod feeling has been a great AD. The problem, of course, is that the more you take, the more you need to take.
I also feel so depressed the day following using tramadol, that I say to mysel " well, you can always start tryign to detox for a few weeks tomorrow". (I had intended to go 4 weeks on, 2 weeks off for the rest of my life, if necessary).
I hadn't always felt this way:I initially thought it would just make me less of a pill while on vacation (no pun intended). Now I am not sure that "better than 'happy'" will ever beat just plain "happy. God, the more I think of it, the more I think I am in real trouble...I just don't want to quit yet - which must make this a pointless posting...
Maybe if I found out that taking these drugs was making my depression worse in the long run I could chew on that...I don't know.
Big sigh......
Diane
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