Posted by idolamine on December 29, 2005, at 20:42:11
As of febuary, it will be exactly 1 year since I last smoked methamphetamine. The duration of abuse of this awful drug was ~4 months, off and on. Current problems are difficult to deliniate, as I was diagnosed with OCD and depression (as well as ADHD) before I first abused meth. Today, I experience a flattened affect, poverty and incoherency of speech, and inconsistincies in mood. For the most part, I am well motivated and able to function well in school (hard science major, GPA 3.3). However, I am concerned with the psychological aspects of it. It feels impossible for me to geniunely enjoy social interaction in a comfortable fashion. I've been of my prozac for awhile and am starting it again. I'm faced with a fear that I've lost something in me- and will never really be able to maintain a healthy romantic relationship, as well as general functioning.
My question is this: are there any users who abused this drug for a (hopefully) brief period of months off and on, who, over a number of years, experienced significant recovery from it's permenant effects. I have slight feelings of paranoia, though not to a great degree. BZDs alleviate this to some degree. Recently, I also began lamacital treatment (just titrated to 75mg daily). I know there is some spontaneous regeneration of dopamine nerves over the years, but the future seems bleak and hopeless to me right now. I've no doubt the SSRIs will help me, but I wish again someday to be normal. Ex abusers out there- is there hope?
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