Posted by nolegirl23 on March 30, 2007, at 22:28:49
This is difficult for me. I have many issues, and I am dealing with all of them except my alcoholism. (WOW - even typing the words "my alcoholism" felt strange..).
I have always ignored the fact that my drinking was an issue. I always had an excuse, a justification, a rationalization for why my drinking was not an issue.
These justifications and rationalizations have gotten me through 10 years of alcoholism, 12 years of anorexia/bulimia, 6 years of drug abuse, a life full of shame, depression, secrets and desperation..
I choose not to face these issues, as the old saying goes "out of sight, out of mind." As long as I could push away the fact that I was/am an addict, the longer I could live in my drug induced bliss.
I went through years of drug and alcohol abuse, but I haven't touched any illegal drug since 2005. The problem is that I substitute alcohol for drugs. I drink WAY too much (bottle of wine every other night), and that is what scares me. I have to quit drinking, I can't tell anybody close to me b/c of my career and my pride, not to mention that my boyfriend hates alcoholics and would ditch me in a moments time...How can I discreetly quit drinking?
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