Posted by lastchild on May 25, 2007, at 2:54:07
I don't usually drink to the point of sickness or complete mind numbing intoxication right now. That state is hard to achieve actually.
A few days ago I was vomiting, but because of a prior stomach surgery, that is just an exercise in dry heaves.
I haven't been outside in a day, past my patio in a few weeks, and outside my complex in a few months.
I haven't talked to a family member in 2 years, a friend in 5 months.
My wife does her best for me and brings me beer. I try to remain human for her benefit.
this is a slow death.
I've gone to the hospital a few times in the past year. (and escaped before the locked door finally closed) I held a job within the past year. Drinking is actually low on the list of my problems. I'm putting this on the substance board because few come here.
A message to myself and the universe. I'm scared.
I'm going to keep this up for a little while longer. I feel like I've run out of options.
poster:lastchild
thread:759386
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