Posted by puppylove14 on May 28, 2008, at 0:20:34
In reply to Re: How's it going now? » pseudoname, posted by puppylove14 on October 8, 2006, at 16:43:44
> Thank you for the advice. Luckily, I am getting help. Although tramadol once consumed my life, I was able to slowly rid myself of the pills. At one point, I had over 150 pills but I threw them out gradually. 50 here, 20 there.... I used to take 4-8 pills a week, now the most I have taken is one. And since I only have 2 left, I will be fine. I am on anti-depressants and Benzodiazepines for anxiety and I am feeling much better. It is nice to not have the drug consume my mind all the time, although there are still cravings I am feeling much better. Thanks again.
yes - its me puppylove. almost a 1.5 years later and im back on tramadol. been back on it for about 8 months. i stopped talking it for 5 months and felt much better with my life, i was also taking antidepressants, ambien, and xanax so that could have something to with it as well. i went on vacation and started talking tramadol again. it felt so amazing to take it again that i continued. i stopped taking my antidepressant because i didnt want to mix it with tramadol/ultram. (thought it could lead to seizures) so now im taking about 8 - 12 pills almost everyday. why do i take it almost everyday?
it makes me feel good/happy/energized/my normal self. when i dont take it, i feel like crap. i get all sweatly and feel yucky and just feel "SAD". its the sad part that makes me keep taking it. i feel good taking tramadol, i feel like it treats my depression and there really isnt anything that wrong with it, RIGHT?! trouble is, i take a look from the outside and know that this would be categorized as addiction by most people.so i dont know if what im doing is wrong or not??it helps me with my depression and i feel normal. i dont take enough to get high high, it just makes me feel normal and gives me energy to get things done. if i dont take it, i lie on my couch most of the day without energy (not literally but seems like that).
another problem with the drug is that you build tolerance so quickly. if you take it everyday, you have to take more and more to feel the effects. im trying not to take more each day and stay stable. i think thats my best bet.
really though, i dont know how ill ever stop taking it or why i should? i know i "should" but it makes me feel good. i feel happy and ready to live. i dont know of any long term side effects? people all over this board and some doctors say tramadol is fine to treat depression - so whats the truth???? should i stop taking it (which i cant anyway) or can i continue taking it, feeling fine and safe and not worrying so much that what im doing is WRONG WRONG WRONG.
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