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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 27, 2009, at 23:25:57
Hey guys,
Something came up and I need to talk about. Is it...how could this happen, my doctor wanted to see me but my mother went into the session, and would not let him prescibe a medication that is vital. Yet he was going to do it, I'm thinking the moral's that are here. Because I have abused this medication in the past, yet looking that it is the most vital thing to surive, yet the hell I put this person though when I was abusing it....I look down on myself, and say "shame".
But still, I'm on my mother's insurance, but I have to say the reason that it was avoided, the doctor didnt have a problem prescibing it, it's my mother in the session just did not want to do it at the time, and I can agree with everything that I put her though in the past. Yet is this healthy, because she is the one that know's me and I have to build my trust in her, because I want to heal wounds that where done in the past. The stuff that I wrote about, there are some "control" issues, but I love this person. I'm 22 and I should be able to go into the session alone, but she knows "i'm going in because I help him". I mean what, i'm just venting. This person loves me dearly, but kinda has left and gone on. And still is there for "adversity" because there was abuse in the past. Yet the vary doctor that "took care" of me in rehab, said it's getting down to the point, Adderall XR.
He told my mother he want's a PET scan done because he want's to see the areas and sections of my brain that are lacking suffiency. And what medication would be needed, and if stimulants are not needed then, it's a no.
Feedback? and I don't want this to be like a big deal but I can't prevent this from happening because I simply cannot move out and get my own insurance because I can't "focus" and the medication that helped is...my mother is adverity to it but there will be some time she will make up her mind. The doctor...which is experienced in "addiction" and was my "rehab" doctor simply came down to the point "a stimulant is needed" but my mom just doesnt want to go though what happened in the past.
Don't let this be, she can go into the session if want's to, but I don't know how to say "no" because there will be "consequences" to that.
You know, there's a love that is done. I know that, I don't want to hurt this person anymore from saying resentful things, but at the same time I'm under control over my doctor's visit's. I don't want to hurt this person anymore, but I just have to find someway to say "ok, can we do this" and the anser is usally "no", and that's when it get's to a resentful thing because it's control, but this person loves me and I love her......
Blog Closed..
rj
Posted by SLS on November 28, 2009, at 6:33:32
In reply to Please tell me what normal is, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 27, 2009, at 23:25:57
I don't know what happened in your past with what you might consider to be drug-abuse, but self-medication is often a symptom of mental illness and is understood to be so by a competent psychiatrist. Perhaps you or your doctor could approach your mother with these facts. It might give her some insight into why you behaved as you did.
By the way, I think you are bipolar. You might have comorbid ADD, but I see bipolar disorder as the explanation for some of your expansive writings on Psycho-Babble, and is very likely the driving force behind your self-medication and erratic behavior.
- Scott
Posted by Maxime on November 28, 2009, at 9:48:22
In reply to Please tell me what normal is, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 27, 2009, at 23:25:57
Are you the only member of the family who suffers from mental illness? It sounds like you are all alone. I really feel for you.
Why did you let your mother come to the appt. with you? You are over 18 and you don't need her there. She is standing in the way of you getting help.
I'm with Scott. I think you are bipolar with ADD.
Are you still taking the Wellbutrin and is it helping?
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 28, 2009, at 12:58:12
In reply to Re: Please tell me what normal is » rjlockhart04-08, posted by SLS on November 28, 2009, at 6:33:32
Hello
Selfmedication...i take only what the doctor prescibes. This doctor is specialized in addiction, so after a while it just came to the point where he said a stimulant was needed.
I take Zyprexa for moods swings... it takes care of irrtiblity. The reason I write people back is in the past I didnt and it was inconsiderate, so I try to make sure that everyone is written back to. Also sometimes i do write long posts, but it's to go in more insight of what's going on.
Thanks and yes I do have ADD which is severe right now and the only thing that is helping is Wellbutrin.
Thanks
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 28, 2009, at 13:02:39
In reply to Re: Please tell me what normal is » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Maxime on November 28, 2009, at 9:48:22
I just let her go in because she likes the doctor to tell her about the medication, but yes she does prevent help from being needed. Yet, I don't want to resent her for doing something that is good morality, but it's down to the point of something has to give.
Yes, I don't know what exact disorder but I know I take Zyprexa for mood swings and that usally helps.
Next time, I just need to go in by myself and I don't know how to say "no" because there will be consqences after it. I just hope I get the correct treatment.
Thanks maxime
Posted by SLS on November 28, 2009, at 13:37:00
In reply to Re: sls, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 28, 2009, at 12:58:12
Regarding my thoughts about your possibly being bipolar:
I just wanted to let you know that I do not think that you post too much nor do I think that your posts are too long. What I meant by using the word "expansive" is that I sometimes find some of your themes and thoughts to be ambitious in scale and scope. This seems to occur episodically. I am not placing blame or judging you in any way. I could be totally wrong, of course.
- Scott
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 28, 2009, at 20:02:12
In reply to Re: sls » rjlockhart04-08, posted by SLS on November 28, 2009, at 13:37:00
Well, I cannot do...anything this person, she let's me stay in my room and die..she doesnt care, neither bother's to do anything expet blame and be a witch, but I know through my strong faith....it's not going to be this way forever.
I don't know what i'm to do scott, I cannot work, I cannot focus, and this thing will not stop because it's destined to destroy. Not help, it's adversity and evil can be desquised in Godly images that pronounce false lies.
Posted by gardenergirl on November 30, 2009, at 16:18:55
In reply to Re: maxime, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 28, 2009, at 13:02:39
> I just let her go in because she likes the doctor to tell her about the medication, but yes she does prevent help from being needed. Yet, I don't want to resent her for doing something that is good morality, but it's down to the point of something has to give.
I wouldn't consider it "morally good" to keep an adult in a dependent state, essentially as a child. I think she needs to control things to the point that she doesn't let you grow up, and that's damaging, in my opinion.gg
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on December 1, 2009, at 13:36:46
In reply to Re: 'morally good', posted by gardenergirl on November 30, 2009, at 16:18:55
You know, I just hope something good happens.
Posted by meltingpot on December 2, 2009, at 12:58:28
In reply to Please tell me what normal is, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 27, 2009, at 23:25:57
Hi,
I can understand why you might take you mother in with you. To be honest I think it's a good idea to take somebody else in with you because they can often provide an objective view. I started taking my mum in because I tend to lose my temper with some psychiatrists and she can let me know if she thinks I'm being unreasonable.
However, if your mum isn't being very constructive it's probably not a good idea for her to be there. But then she knows you and loves you more than anyone else. She probably only wants the best for you (I know my mum does).
What was it that happened before that's she's worried will happen again?
Denise
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on December 2, 2009, at 22:34:56
In reply to Re: Please tell me what normal is, posted by meltingpot on December 2, 2009, at 12:58:28
She's afraid of abuse happening again, and at this point...it cannot, because I took Dexedrine for a while...and I didnt abuse it because that was period of building trust, but when I get in my mind "i need to take another" that's the sign of abuse when it's small.
In Paticular situation stimulants are not liked because of past abuse, in general but if it's "manadory" which is going to be hard to show, she may consider it again. It just she went thought the abuse with me, and it's like co-dependecy, she knew all about it and how it happened, but because I was given grace, was I able to take it during school periods. Write now, the knowing of "having" to take this correctly...it's just like popping a pill, for pain, another, and another..see with Dexedrine or Adderall, once you have taken a dose over 40-60mg people will see "signs" of amphetamine abuse or misuse because the FDA recommeneded the highest for Dexedrine is 60mg, but i've heard of people on 75mg, and 90mg, but those where old cases that no one ever hear's of anymore. Signs of amphetamine abuse are usally: talk very fast, eyes dialated, sweating very much over the regular, work on paper work excessivly like a machine..."improved" cleaning/or cleaning repetivly...either the house or selfwash/ in the shower... It improves mood by the release of dopamine...and when it wear's off, you can't take high doses really even the FDA recommened amount is pretty high, which is 60mg.
See this is a my "rehab" doctor, and he does think a stimulant is needed because of deteration in work, or at work....I mess things up, and amphetamine has alway's improved these things because it stimulantes a area in the brain that's not stimulanted for normal function. Yet still...I don't know because I have resentment because this person say's "no" all the time. And i'm 22....so goodness! i need to grow up! but i can't! lol!
I see my doctor tommrow by myself, wish me luck that she will not intervene, maybe my family will despense it, but that means driving 50miles just to take medication! well if it works then I'll do it.
Thanks;)
rj
Posted by Meltingpot on December 4, 2009, at 15:15:50
In reply to Re: Please tell me what normal is, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on December 2, 2009, at 22:34:56
Hi,
Well I can understand why she might be concerned that you will start abusing again.
Do you think you will be able to take it without needing to keep upping the dose?
Denise
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