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Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 5, 2012, at 23:27:41
i don't get like this but after thinking of all the blocks in my life...i'm not doing for any kind of sympathy but in my bed when I sleep...in my dreams I wake up and filled with heartache and let the tears run under the covers...don't feel sorry me...because the nightmare I let myself in...for not doing anything....and staying like a lowlife who stays at home because i screw up anytime I have a job, or when I try to get on my own, it just collapses...it fills me with ... well anyway, there's nothing that can be done by posting here...the only thing it can is other people reading it...nothing to change it, and I should have the courage to find the solution to all this. I'm passive...i procratinate...its great to not do things on my own...and that's exacly what the whole problem is but people don't understand that my abilites are limited, the chemicals in my body are off.....i don't want to talk this anymore.
There's a simple solution to this...yet I do things that are not simple or logical...
not feeling in the best of hopes...
rj
Posted by vbs on October 6, 2012, at 0:56:55
In reply to im so depressed..., posted by rjlockhart37 on October 5, 2012, at 23:27:41
rj, don' beat yourself up. Do you feel stable enough to look for a job? Having money coming in and being around other people will help you to feel better about yourself. What about applying for Social Security Disability? I don't know your work history. You're only 25 yrs old, so you may not be eligible. It's worth researching though. You may also want to consider SSI.
Living at home can be a drag. You want to be more independent.
Sounds like you have situational depression. It will pass. I would seriously consider applying for government benefits. Having an income does wonders for mood.
Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 6, 2012, at 13:51:10
In reply to Re: im so depressed... » rjlockhart37, posted by vbs on October 6, 2012, at 0:56:55
thank you for your post....the fact that you informed me its situational depression is a proven fact that I didnt realize...yes income would solve alot of these issues...i can do things I want....but I hate the fact of being on disability because I had sworn a couple years ago that I would make my own income through successful career.
Yes...if I was independent It would be much better...yet there are things I do that are not logical so if I was living on my own... i don't know... but all this has caused this spiral depression of doom.
rj
Posted by vbs on October 6, 2012, at 17:38:14
In reply to Re: im so depressed..., posted by rjlockhart37 on October 6, 2012, at 13:51:10
So you're on disability?
I was approved for SSDI this past January. I would like to at least have a part-time job once I'm stable and not hearing voices. The important thing is that I feel financially secure; I can pay rent & bills, etc.
Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 6, 2012, at 23:10:04
In reply to Re: im so depressed... » rjlockhart37, posted by vbs on October 6, 2012, at 17:38:14
no im not disability...the ego is reluctant to do it because I want to make some kind of impression im self sufficient yet the truth is my behaviors are all over the place...not logical, disorganized. Even if I had a good job, people have always known me as the person who loses many things in one day and it repeats...and saying funny wierd things, people told me to smoke pot to calm down...like a joke... that's just me.
The pipedreams of my mind...are still there, and I have made attempts by enrolling myself in acting school and taking vigiourously getting envolved, its just when I was pulled off my effective meds...the stimulants, things went down fall. I can't blame anyone, I should of figured it out. Now im just in dark place in life...still it will take some time to get to a normal place in life...the pipedreams will have to wait until im ready and able to do them.
If I really take a look at myself right now in the past months ... lowlife, and sad... but still I do choose to live and press the accelertor when its ready to go.
till then....no boasting from me...
r
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