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Posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 0:57:55
AS some of you know, I have been awfully depressed lately and feeling so hopeless. Finally called my p-doc and left a message..told him I wasn't doing well and am not due to go there for 3 weeks.. 3 weeks is a long time to keep going on like this since I have felt bad since the last appt I had with him. All he did that day was add one more med tht doesn't do a thing for me.
well it has been two days and he has not bothered to call back yet.. I think it is iresponsible. He doesn't know what state I am in or how bad it is or isn't.
Called the office to see if I could get in sooner but they are all booked up and can only call me if someone cancels.. blah..They said they would do that when i saw how far off my appointment was going to be to begin with.. Well they never called. Can I beleive NO ONE cancelled??I hate to try to find a new one. Ihave to pay them big bucks to evaluate me.. Why don't I get to evaluate them without paying them tons of money? I have to pay just to find out tht someone is strange or that we just don't connect. I wish there was a way just to met them without going through all the stuff.. My insurance pays alot of it but there is only so much that they will pay for in a year..Maybe i will go back to one I met awhile ago.. I have the one I am seeing now cause I ws in a research study that he ran. He seems compassionate enough, (when he returns calls), but I don't know if he really hears me.. He doesn't know me at all.
I am hanging in there.. A little better today but I want to be LOTS better!!
I really don't want to talk to someone new either. I am tired of talking and telling people all my issues and stuff. Kind of too much work to talk about. I am seeing another T in addition to my regular one and I find I just don't tell her alot. I don't mean to be tht way but i just don't want to get into it. I guess that all has to do with the hopelessness?? Like why bother talking to these people who really probably don't care all that much anyway. Why bother talking when I have no faith that it is going to help anyway??
hope everyone had a nice xmas, (if possible). We can all be relieved it is over now;)
Posted by Poet on December 29, 2007, at 12:07:54
In reply to So I guess I do need to look for a new p-doc, posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 0:57:55
Hi Star008,
Even if your pdoc is booked solid I think he should have called you back. Maybe he could have phoned in a prescription to at least get you through what to me are horrid holidays.
I can understand you not wanting to talk to somebody new. I've had two pdocs and my hands shook during the questions at the evaluation. Though that might have helped as Dr. Clueless (second pdco) suggest anti-anxiety meds.
I hope you find a pdoc that you mesh with. Dr. Clueless is back from holiday in January and I plan to make an appointment because like you I want to feel lots better. We all deserve to feel lots better (and to have our calls returned.)
Take care.
Poet
Posted by nfc on December 29, 2007, at 14:05:48
In reply to So I guess I do need to look for a new p-doc, posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 0:57:55
hey star,
as you already know, you have additional T's already. Those here on babble. :D It's helped me alot since I just started here recently. I like to say that I have a personal online therapist.
I'll probably have to start some kind of insurance payment w/ her. hehe.anyway I'm wondering, your insurance must cover more than one pdoc right? and fortunately next year is around the corner so you'll have your full year benefits all over again. did u have any success w/ the search in your area from the link i posted previously? if you don't mind telling us what state your from, then maybe we can look up stuff on the net for you. can a family member or friend help you out personally in the search and in making calls? in the meantime type away and post on babble, we all want to help.
nfc
Posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 14:41:38
In reply to Re: So I guess I do need to look for a new p-doc » star008, posted by nfc on December 29, 2007, at 14:05:48
I like the name dr clueless.. I will have to use it..He said somethng about being out of town.. Well yeah, i knew that but they said he checked his messages.. I could have died while he "was out fo town" enjoying himself..
He put me on another med, one that I am not really to thrilled about taking.. Told me that I need to consider VNS or ECT.. dmn.. hopeless..That part is really not his fault. I hae been on so many meds but still i don't wnt either of those options.
I hae a website where i can check the providers that my insurance covers. I couldn't find a link for case management.. Don't know if that would help anyway..
yeah, he screwed up.. will finda nother one.. jsut wish i didn't feel so hopeless about it.
Posted by muffled on December 29, 2007, at 18:02:40
In reply to i called again ))poet ))nfc, posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 14:41:38
> I like the name dr clueless.. I will have to use it..He said somethng about being out of town.. Well yeah, i knew that but they said he checked his messages.. I could have died while he "was out fo town" enjoying himself..
*hmmmm. So you don't think he is very clever with meds??? Cuz I guess thats the main thing w/p-doc if you have a T as well...
> He put me on another med, one that I am not really to thrilled about taking.. Told me that I need to consider VNS or ECT.. dmn.. hopeless..That part is really not his fault. I hae been on so many meds but still i don't wnt either of those options.*Wass VNS? Wass new med? Do you ever goto the meds board? Some of them guys seem to know quite a bit bout meds and how they work, and various combos of them....
You need a p-doc with experience with medicating patients with DD's. Cuz thats an additional challenge.
> I hae a website where i can check the providers that my insurance covers. I couldn't find a link for case management.. Don't know if that would help anyway..*I dunno?
> yeah, he screwed up.. will finda nother one.. jsut wish i didn't feel so hopeless about it.*sigh, sometimes its so hard to not feel hopeless. But star008, you got a sense of humour, when it comes around, enjoy it. Sometimes I lose my humour, or a part disallows it, and that sucks.
You got 2 T's ? What do they do?
Are you actively dealing with your parts? Cuz I am thinking thats what needs to be done IMHO. It seems to me, that no matter what I am 'taught' bout emotion regulation etc etc etc, I can't seem to 'take it in' as it were. I think as a result of separation, I can't always get all information absorbed into all of myself. And I think thats a prob. And I think thats why me'n'my T has to go over and over stuff SO much. Cuz there's parts of me thats pretty smart. So you would think them parts could 'get' all this stuff I learning. Hell I can spout stuff here on babble, thats so approapraitely T stuff. But it don't mean the oart whats writing it even understands it....
So star, keep trying OK. I need someone to joke around with. Someone to give me a little dig in the ribs now and again....
Poast away bout your 'stuff' if it helps. You can bmail me, but I am rather an unreliable bmailer. No offense to anyone, I just kinda got a thing bout it, mebbe it feels kinda too intimate or something. Its like I get that way when I in chat with only 1 other person, sometimes it feels too close and I get nervous.
Take care star, I am a rambling, but its cuz I care OK?
(((((star0008)))))
M
Posted by star008 on December 30, 2007, at 7:22:43
In reply to Hey » star008, posted by muffled on December 29, 2007, at 18:02:40
Was lonely here without you!! Hope u had a nice time getting away for a few days.I am ok but had a rough time with being sick and then xmas and I was all alone. too isolated.. Too depressing.
VNS is a implant that send electrical impulses to the vagus nerve..Some people have had great results with it but you have to have surgery and they implant something like a pacemaker and it is attached to wires that go up your neck to and are implanted in your vagus nerve.. uggghhh.. I don't want implants or surgery..And I am afraid I would be the one who doesn't respond to it. but I am treatment-resistant, meds don't work well for meSo. it is getting to where there is not much left to try.
dr put me on buspar three times a day.. But anxiety isn't such a problem for me.. Sometimes it gets bad but the depression is wht is destroying me.. Buspar is for anxiety. The P-doc didn't return my call and I had to call him again. makes me angry cuz I don't call often.. it is not like I bug him.. He should know if I call then I need something. It is like he is just not "getting" it but I can't put my finger on it and explain it. He seems to listn but I don't think he really does..But part of me might be angry with him and it is not his fault I don't respond to meds??I don't know if there is a med for DD..Have you heard of any??
My T referred me to a therapist who does "energy" work.. I am not sure I beleive it or not but it has to do with energy fields in the body and how they get screwed up. I have only seen that T once but I don't like it cuz it involves touch and u know we don't like that.. scares the ikids bad. I don't know about this one but I will try awhile more.
I think you are right about dealing with all the parts.. I beleive the same as you.. Without dealing with them you don't have everyone cooperating and they will screw things up..I will keep trying.. Just get so discouraged with things. I don't want to keep living like this..So much of my life is being wasted.. I don';t really live, I just get by and go through the motions every day.. I want to really live.
muffled.. nice to see u back.. hope u are okay..
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