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Posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 10:58:47
but LOTS of emotions and confusion going along with it.
i'm pregnant.
but i'm all kinds of freaking out.
one, i'm very emotional unlike my last preg., but i also just stopped taking my AD last week when i started to get symptoms...i took a test then and it was negative but i figured it might just be too soon...then sure enough..positive.-but i've already had a couple nightmares about my 'family' hurting me while i'm preg and vulnerable.
-i've been crying off and on this week.
-but the main thing is since it started i was worried that i'd have twins (since i had to do fert. meds). but i've thought about it so long that i am TOTALLY fine with it and in fact dont see this preg as anything BUT with twins.
-but looking back at my 'chart', now im paranoid that there could be more! i mean i think i may have ovulated twice (my T said that's what happened to her), and the second time i ovulated i had cramps so i could have release 2 eggs!
so now i'm FREAKING out that there could be more than two.-i was originally scheduled to have my sonogram next tues after my t appt. but i think i will seriously need support so i just called and changed it to 10:30 tuesday.
so.
now i am just trying to calm myself. i mean financially alone there is NO way we could afford triplets, but let alone emotional support. my husband would probably go off the deep end. and i KNOW i would have no family support on my end.
i'm just scared to death.but on the other hand, my T asked yesterday if the sonogram reveals that there's only one how would i feel. she was concerned that i would feel a loss. and i told her absolutely. just everything in my body tells me there's more than one inside me. and i've gotten so used to that, that if there's only one, i WILL feel like i lost one. even though i haven't.
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so even though i should be enjoying myself right now...i can't. i'm just so worried about next tues. when my whole world could change. and well, will change no matter what.i guess too i've been waiting what seems like forever for this next baby and i just pray it/they are healthy.
please pray for me that there are only two!
b2c.+
Posted by backseatdriver on January 9, 2009, at 11:47:24
In reply to some good news, Finally, posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 10:58:47
i know things are complicated right now, but from my perspective, i think you're doing great -- especially in light of all the uncertainty, not to mention all the extra emotional sensitivity that goes along with pregnancy. congratulations on your good news, b2c!
bsd
Posted by Phillipa on January 9, 2009, at 13:36:53
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally, posted by backseatdriver on January 9, 2009, at 11:47:24
Oh wow didn't know you took fertility meds. Wow congratulations sure didn't seem to take long. Hubby happy I hope? Great news. Phillipa
Posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 15:08:37
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally, posted by Phillipa on January 9, 2009, at 13:36:53
...yes hubby is happy. but he seems to have forgotten about the risks with clomid. and isn't worried at all. and he freaks out easily so i dont want to have an outbreak of paranoia and over worrying this weekend so i'm not expressing my concerns to him.i really REALLY feel that i have more than one baby in me.
but now i'm freaking out that there could be MORE than 2...we just cant afford it. heck, we can't afford twins. but with more, we would assuridly loose our house. there's no way we could pay our mortgage with that many.
twins will be tough. but i believe we could make it.
and i'm willing.but i just dont have the emotional stregnth for more than that.
i keep praying and TRYING to trust that God wont give me more than i can handle....but its still hard.
i emailed T and told her i got an earlier appt so that i can talk with her about it after and she just emailed me and told me that she can fit me in at noon if i wanted.
i want...so this way i wont have Three hours waiting.my sonogram is at 10:30 and T at noon. then home to talk with hubby.
(he'll be home cuz his work vehicle will be getting fixed next week)please pray for my guys. i need some power prayer here.
Posted by Wittgensteinz on January 9, 2009, at 15:41:39
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally, posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 15:08:37
Firstly,
Congratulations! It's wonderful news and it's what you wanted. I imagine you must be feeling a lot of emotional ups and downs but shouldn't this steady out somewhat in time? You've just stopped an AD, that won't make matters easier.
I think it's very wise of you to have arranged your appointments as you have, this way any worries you feel after the sonogram can be worked through straight away. Often doing things this way can take the edge of something unexpected.
As for the number of babies you are carrying - I guess the only real way to find out is with the sonogram and it's just going to be a matter of wait and see - nothing you do in the mean time will effect that result, so maybe try to relax between now and then (is that possible?!). It's exciting though, waiting for big news.
I keep my fingers crossed for Tuesday that all is going well, and that you have two healthy developing infants. And if things aren't to plan, you will manage - it will be ok - it will be a shock, a hurdle but you'll just have to pause, step back and re-tune to the new situation - that's how life goes.
Again, congratulations!
Witti
Posted by Phillipa on January 9, 2009, at 23:41:01
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally, posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 15:08:37
B2chica so happy for you and Hubby will you get a something didn't know 3 dimentional ultrasound to see whether boys and girls or regular? How many weeks any idea? And it's definitely more than one? Congratulations again. Love Phillipa
Posted by antigua3 on January 10, 2009, at 9:48:53
In reply to some good news, Finally, posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 10:58:47
Congratulations! I remember when you had your first and how nervous you were. I'm just really happy for you, but I understand you're on a rollercoaster right now between getting off the AD and having pregnancy symptoms. Accept that and find ways to soothe yourself.
You certainly have my prayers and loving support. You are just incredible! Look at how far you've come. However it turns out, you have much, much better coping skills now, and if you keep an eye on how you're feeling, and continue to ask for the support you need, you can do it.
all my best,
antigua
Posted by no_rose_garden on January 10, 2009, at 19:33:57
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally » B2chica, posted by Phillipa on January 9, 2009, at 23:41:01
congrats!! (((babies))) I hope you don't get too many, but I'm sure you'll love them no matter how many there are!
Posted by lucie lu on January 11, 2009, at 20:01:12
In reply to some good news, Finally, posted by B2chica on January 9, 2009, at 10:58:47
Posted by B2chica on January 12, 2009, at 15:25:19
In reply to Re: some good news, Finally, posted by no_rose_garden on January 10, 2009, at 19:33:57
thank you so much all!
i have SO much anxiety. i'm not even goign to be able to concentrate ONE BIT at work in the morning.thank you for the support.
loveyou all!
b2c.
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