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Posted by panic_attack on February 13, 2004, at 19:22:41
I am getting out of control. Last night, I did a bag of cocaine, took a Klonopin and drank like a fish. I don't remember anything but getting kicked out of a bar. A bunch of girls came up to me, grabbed me by my arm, took me outside and were about to jump me. Supposedly, I was calling them b*tches, and whor*s and I do not remember anything at all. I dont remember calling them names. Why cant i just stop drinking? I overdosed on cocaine a few years ago and now im all screwed up. I rely on medication for anxiety/panic attacks and sleep. I gave up on the drugs for years and now I am slowly starting to use them again. I could never quit drinking. Im such a drunk. After I drink, the next day i feel like dying all day and cannot leave my bed. I always get scared that I will end up back in the hospital. I have hospitalized myself like 5 or 6 times. I just cant seem to get 100% sober and drug free. My mom says she is planning my funeral cuz she knows im going to die soon. It is going on 10 years of drug and alcohol abuse. I am tired of feeling sick all the time. Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am constantly sick!!! I have tried to quit so many times and was unsuccessful. I guess God chose my life path and I am going to die as a drug/alcoholic loser. Pretty sad.
Posted by krazybirdlady on February 14, 2004, at 16:22:42
In reply to Alcohol/Cocaine/Pills, posted by panic_attack on February 13, 2004, at 19:22:41
so what do you want me to say that you haven't already said? you know what is going on with you. for me to say "get help" would be redundant considering your past. if you are asking if you can get clean now?? in spite of your past, then..of course. many people do and continue to be clean despite of their past failures. yes, you need to do this. you are the one who is dooming yourself to failure. not God. don't blame Him. or anyone else. but you know that...
Posted by caleb96 on March 21, 2004, at 14:23:52
In reply to Alcohol/Cocaine/Pills, posted by panic_attack on February 13, 2004, at 19:22:41
You're scared you're gonna end up in the hospital??!! Friend, odds are you're gonna end up in the morgue with a tag on your big toe!
What's making you want to do a River Phoenix? Only you know and only you can save yourself before it's too late.
God help you!!! You need to be committed to a hospital immediately--that's the only way you'll have a chance to beat this self destructive behavior.
God help you,
Caleb
Posted by T_R_D on March 22, 2004, at 13:51:04
In reply to Alcohol/Cocaine/Pills, posted by panic_attack on February 13, 2004, at 19:22:41
You're trapped in a terrible cycle and I know it hurts...I've been there (or at least close to your "there"...we all have our own stories.) I've cleaned up...pretty much...as long as I don't go manic, I should be okay ;) But it took a lot of work--it still does: the right meds...support from people who are close to me... But most of all, it was ME. I decided I didn't want to do it anymore to myself. It was affecting EVERY aspect of my life...hell, my employer wanted to throw me into rehab! In fact, maybe that's what you need to do.
A lot of people say that alcoholism/drug abuse etc... is self-medication for an underlying condition. It certainly was for me (being bipolar.) You haven't mentioned any other issues so I don't know if you have an addiction dependency or if you are actually self-medicating. Either way, it sounds like you're in deep.
Get help. You can do it!
Posted by panic_attack on June 13, 2004, at 15:11:46
In reply to Re: Alcohol/Cocaine/Pills, posted by T_R_D on March 22, 2004, at 13:51:04
You know, I have realized the main reason I was using drugs. It was who I was hanging out with! I had a friend named Crystal that I would use drugs with and I haven't seen her in months, and I havent touched any drugs in months!!! I havent even thought about it, and I came across this post I wrote months ago and realized WOW.... All i need to do is stay away from these negative acquaintences in my life and I'll be O.K :) I still drink every now and then, but glad to be drug free!
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