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Posted by ClearSkies on December 20, 2005, at 8:01:22
4 months today. A good holiday season so far. I stay out of liquor stores that appear to have jewels of bottles winking out at me. It's not torture but simply looking away from what I decided I can't have.
Smells are a huge trigger for me. I think my sense of smell has become more pronounced since I became sober. A few weeks ago I seriously considered a martini. The martini was not going to hurt me. Just a wee little drink in a tiny glass. I opened the bottle of Sapphire Blue and the vapours wafted towards my nose. I just about lost it as it image of me holding my head in pain loomed before me. I could feel the thirst as the first 'tini would go down and I'd be feeling NOTHING. No buzz, no giddiness, the same crummy feeling I had before.
That aroma just stopped me cold. I thought of it on my breath. I thought of me turning my head away from my husband, inhaling if he kissed me, the lie I would have to tell him about what he smelled (it's cough syrup! - except I haven't a cold), or worst of all, the truth I would tell him and the disappointment I'd feel.
So I put the bottle back. Took a few shakey breaths. Closed my eyes. I'm relieved, grateful, came too close.4 months of miracles today. Now *that* is a great Christmas present.
Posted by Larry Hoover on December 20, 2005, at 8:52:32
In reply to Is there no end to the wonder??, posted by ClearSkies on December 20, 2005, at 8:01:22
> 4 months of miracles today. Now *that* is a great Christmas present.So was hearing about it. :-)
Lar
Posted by AuntieMel on December 20, 2005, at 12:29:40
In reply to No, no end to the wonderful. » ClearSkies, posted by Larry Hoover on December 20, 2005, at 8:52:32
Yippee!!!!
It's great isn't it! The whole family is coming to my house - and if I hadn't quit it would be like Robert Earl's Christmas.......
http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/keen-robert-earl/merry-christmas-from-the-family-11767.html
The saving grace - there won't be any in the house.
Posted by LegWarmers on December 20, 2005, at 15:20:33
In reply to No, no end to the wonderful. » ClearSkies, posted by Larry Hoover on December 20, 2005, at 8:52:32
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> > 4 months of miracles today. Now *that* is a great Christmas present.
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> So was hearing about it. :-)
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> Lar
>I agree with Larry! Merry Christmas and congrats! : )
Posted by RobertDavid on December 21, 2005, at 0:00:45
In reply to Re: No, no end to the wonderful. Clearskies, posted by LegWarmers on December 20, 2005, at 15:20:33
Quite an experience you had! Good for you!!!
Merry Christmas
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