Posted by David K. on January 19, 1999, at 5:10:50
In reply to Re: Celexa and increased mood swings, posted by Shirley Near Seattle on January 18, 1999, at 22:53:29
Good morning!
Well, I think I slept through the night (I don't remember waking up, especially not the 37 times I usually do.) I took the Ambien at, oh, 8:30 maybe (I couldn't wait) and woke up on cue at 5:25a,, five minutes before the alarm went off. So at least I got some sleep & I don't feel as ornery as I have over the past few days (although I'm sure the Plant Manager at work will change that. He's a bad, bad man. And no help to ANYONE'S mental health.)
I often wonder about that "What is normal?" thing ... I don't want to get into it right now, but sometimes it seems that wanting to die SHOULD be acceptable. (Of course, that would only count for when I want to die, not anyone else! Then I'd try to talk them out of it!)
I see my Dr. every week, and it helps even when I'm not feeling so bad. I'm a good faker, and most people don't suspect that I've got any problems and even DON'T BELIEVE ME when I try to tell them. (One guy thought it was just my wacky sense of humor when I told him I was seeing a pschiatrist. I figured that if it was soooooo unbelieveable to him, I'd let him think I was kidding. But he told me, "Depression? You're not depressed.") And when I'm on the phone at work people say, "Oh, you're always so chipper!" I tell 'em it's a big lie, and they laugh and laugh... "Oh, Dave, you're so funny!"
Hmm. At least I'm amusing. Now dance, Monkey Boy!
(Oh yeah ... I often wish I'd find out I had '3 months' (that's too long!) to live. I think I like that idea because it's a lot less work than having to do something about it myself. Maybe I can hire a contract killer to rub me out?)
poster:David K.
thread:2503
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990501/msgs/2525.html