Posted by Sean on July 14, 1999, at 23:41:22
In reply to Re: ruthE, Judy, posted by JohnL on July 14, 1999, at 19:18:35
> Thanks so much for the kind support. You two are so cool in my book. People in this thread are so gifted with words. Sean ought to be a writer. So what happened? Hey, who knows. Just a plateau? Fizzle? All I know is I've experienced the temporary relief and let-down way too much to get my hopes up for long. But the reality is I'm only in week two of new treatment, and yep, as painful as it is, persistence is needed to give the meds time to work. Even the guru Hagop Akiskal in his book says these drugs need 3 months, not the usually touted 4-6 weeks. Hangin in there. With lovely folks like you around, the road isn't nearly as bumpy as it would be without you. Wishing you all a smooth day and thanking you for your kindness. JohnL.
Hey JohnL,
thanks for the kind words on my writing. I'm very
sorry to hear about how things are going with your
brain these days. There should be a word for that
depressing feeling caused by the simple knowledge
that your depression is returning... a kind of
meta-depression I suppose. I remember telling my
therapist that I can handle my mood swings until
I get to the point where I simply do not believe
things will *ever* get better. Of course they
usually do - eventually, somehow, with time
and or drugs.One metaphor I have worked with is to see myself
as a form of lichen, you know that atumnal
colored stuff that grows on wild rocks. Lichen is
able to survive the most desolate, windbare
conditions of just about anything. Sometimes it is
all we can expect of ourselves (sadly, truth be
told...) to hang the heck on for dear life, like
lichen, in the rocky neural wilderness of our own
brains. Not fun, to be sure, but certainly we
need to be our own advocates in such damnable
times.Hope things turn around soon. I can totally
relate to this frustration. It sucks and it isn't
fair. Someday the neurological knight in shining
armour will arrive and we can all spend time at
other sites for a change.Sean.
poster:Sean
thread:8552
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