Posted by Roo on September 7, 1999, at 7:29:17
I had a really bad day yesterday. Does anyone ever go
through really painful periods regarding their depression
and long term relationships. I just feel like I can't
handle a good, healthy relationship b/c of my depression.
I don't feel good enough for my boyfriend, I feel like
he's so "healthy" and I'm a mental patient. (I know
these aren't good things to say to myself, but I'm just
being honest--I hate that I tell myself these things).
Everytime I think about being married, I think it'll
never work b/c of my depression. Sometimes I feel so bitter,
and I hate what this disease does to me and my life and
my relationships. It's so painful to me, to think that
I can't have love and the only thing getting in the way
is my own head.
Anyone relate?
poster:Roo
thread:11168
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990829/msgs/11168.html