Posted by JohnL on September 11, 1999, at 19:21:12
In reply to I need a reference point!, posted by Bob on September 11, 1999, at 16:44:50
Very cool topic, Bob! It sounds like a bit of mania was happening back then, huh? Sorry to hear about the debts. Mild hypomania isn't such a bad thing as long as someone takes away our ability to get our hands on money! :) Anyway, like you I have a 1 - 10 scale. 1 is trying to be dead. 2 is thinking about being dead. 3 and 4 are lousy dark days. I've spent too much time in the 2 to 4 range. I'm at a 5 or 6 which is functioning OK, able to fake my way through anything, but not wanting to do anything. No fun. No joy. My goal is a 10. A 10 to me is "I feel like playing my guitar". "I feel like throwing a ball with the kids." "I feel like listening to some music." "I can't wait to do XYZ tomorrow." Those are all 10s. That's my reference point, simply to enjoy normal everyday activities and hobbies. Nothing special. I just want to want to play my guitar. I just want to want. That's a 10.
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