Posted by Bob on September 13, 1999, at 17:45:47
In reply to Is This Better??, posted by Riley on September 12, 1999, at 22:44:34
U of M? Michigan? If that's the M, then grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ...
I know that with the state of humanity's knowledge about brain disorders, psychopharmacology can seem more like psychopharmaroulette. But still, to have someone tell you "Hey! 80% function is dandy by me!" is so ignorant and/or insensitive. How'd you like to hear from a heart surgeon, "Well, we're gonna try to get you back up to 80% of your heart function." zheesh!
Sorry 'bout the outburst, but I've had to deal with too many doctors who see their patients as machines. Worse, as simple machines ... as if there's only one factor that needs to be considered. ACk!
Riley, trying something new after gaining seventy pounds is nowhere near stupid. Even 20-20 hindsight can't make a good argument for staying on that cocktail and just living with the extra baggage. For most women, that 70# is more than 50% of their original weight ... that sort of weight gain, particularly over long periods of time, can be far more deadly than depression, given the psychological and physiological implications of caring it. You can't blame yourself for wanting to try something different because doing so put you on the psychotropic not-so-merry-go-round. I could have stayed on my first med, too, and who knows how long it would have worked for me. But I didn't. All the same, given the situation I think I'd make the same decision again, so I never let that eat at me.
If it helps any, here's what I try to do to force the hope and the dreams that are so easily shattered away, when I can. Right here, right now, there are two things I think about: who I am and where I'm heading. Being and Becoming. Of the two, Becoming is the more important. Find what direction you want to head, look to where you are right now, then find out what you can do today, tomorrow, maybe thru next week to get you where you want to go.
... just like in "What About Bob?" (Bill Murray playing a psycho-Bob ... too much fun for this one here! ;^)
.... baby-steps ....
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