Posted by juniper on January 2, 2000, at 12:58:07
In reply to Re: Pursuing "Life" while still recovering , posted by JohnL on January 1, 2000, at 12:45:01
i have a feeling that this is a topic that everyone on the road to recovery (at least i thought that was where the road led, though they never do label these things clearly)understands. i hate the fact that i could live like this forever. i could do all sorts of useful things, but they are all tinged by a stain that is sometimes sad, and sometimes just apathetic. whatever my potential is, it always seems to be just over there, a bit out of reach. depression and its relations came early for me, during the period most children are forming their identities. so, naturally, depression became a part of who i am, and i have never been able to exticate myself entirely from this formation . i am not sure how much i want to. i am hypersensitive, moody, introspective...but these same qualities could be seen as empathic, passionate, curious...the semantics of my life just kinda sway in the breeze.
wait! this has little to do with the post or where i was trying to go in the first place (this is a familiar feeling). to reel it back in: what else can you do but play damage control and carry on as much as possible, while waiting for that time when things aren't so hard? my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone in this struggle.
juniper
PEACE IN YOUR STRUGGLE TO FIND PEACE
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