Posted by Noa on May 17, 2000, at 15:54:08
In reply to Re: Rage and Cutting Revisited Noa amd Janet, posted by Cynthia M on May 17, 2000, at 15:38:16
From what I read, people who cut are not necessarily suffering from borderline personality disorder. You aren't cutting to get attention. It is more of a compulsion.
Substituting one behavior for another isn't addressing the point either. The cutting has developed over time for a reason--it is a way of coping with feelings and just substituting something else doesn't really address what is underneath.
I think you have to think of this as a process, not something that is going to be cured overnight.
I think your current clinicians are letting you know they don't know how to treat this disorder. This is probably not unusual. I don't think most clinicians are trained to treat it. That is why finding a specialist or a specialized program seems a good way to go.
And yes, deep down, you probably do have the resources to deal with your life. But right now you don't know how to access them and are expecting too much of yourself. You need to access the right kind of help to help you to navigate your way through this.
I don't think there is anything wrong with needing the helpers in the system. But you sound like you don't have any hope that they can help you. That is what is missing. You need to be helped by someone who can convey hope to you that your problem is treatable, that you can begin to work toward being the person you want to be.
But again, this has to be seen as a process. And you probably need to explore what it means to be the person you want to be. I get the feeling, over and over, that you are constantly measuring yourself up against an impossible ideal, and of course finding yourself inadequate.
How about contacting one of the SAFE type programs?
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