Posted by tina on August 1, 2000, at 7:10:37
In reply to Re: What's With This Anyway » tina, posted by KarenB on August 1, 2000, at 3:05:50
This is actually no where near my period but thanks for caring.
> > Hi everybody: I am so pissed off today. I have been riding a really good high lately, for about 11 days since having my meds increased but today, I'm starting to crash. I have been finding it hard to concentrate, focus and I'm tired and irritable and depressed. I feel stupid and pathetic. Why can't the high's just keep going? Why do I always have to come crashing down into the pit again? I thought I got off that roller coaster finally but here it is again. I just want to scream obcenities at the top of my lungs and pull my hair out. Gone back to the cutting thing too and all last night I thought about ways to "get hurt" I was away this weekend and I waterskied and went swimming in the lake and I was going over and over in my head most of the night how if I had just let go of the rope closer to the dock I could have smashed into the cement moorings and bashed my head in or broken a leg or something. Same with the swimming. There were so many power boats in the water and jet-skis and I was thinking if I just duck under the water maybe they'll run me over and chop me into little pieces. I don't really want any of this to happen, I just haven't thought about physical harm in a while and now it's back.
> > Will it improve again or is my med pooping out on me.
> > 900mgs of moclobemide BTW is what I take and 2mgs of clonazepam spread out over the day. I start therapy next week but I have little hope in that regard. I've been through it before, 4 times and it ain't helped yet.
> > Just had to ramble, thanks to anyone who read the whole thing.
> > Love you guys
> > Tina
> > PS---sorry G, had enough on your plate today
>
> Tina,
>
> This wouldn't be one week before your period, would it? I don't mean to make light of your situation but for me, PMS is no laughing matter. When it is bad, it is very, very bad. During those times, I even feel as if I want to hurt others and myself and I do not normally have that group of symptoms. Sometimes it takes every bit of restraint not to. Last month, I was completely disabled by it for four straight days, this month was no problem whatsoever.
>
> I have another appt with my GYN on Wednesday to have my regular exam and talk about hormone therapy. I had a biopsy last week and it was normal, thank God. We'll see what happens this week.
>
> Hope that whatever is going on with you is not med poop-out and will pass, QUICKLY.
>
> Take it easy on yourself, girl. Let some things go, be kind to yourself and get some rest. Whatever is wrong, rest is never a bad idea.
>
> Karen
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