Posted by PuraVida on May 24, 2001, at 1:31:36
In reply to Re: Anxiety/Depression/Arousal/Satiation, posted by geekUK on May 20, 2001, at 8:49:16
M,
So avoidance it is - at least I think I am also in an avoidance pattern. Identifying it is easy -figuring out why and what to do about it are another. What does your doc expect you to do with that "diagnosis", anyhow? :) For me, I guess its just that, when I have the good days and make plans, set some goals, and dare to dream a bit (all within reasonable limits, mind you) I just know that the lows will follow, and over time (lots of time) I think I am beginning to try to numb the highs (or at least my positive thoughts) figuring that I'll be back in the dumps soon, so why bother? Also fear - fear that I won't stabilize, and that after my good times, the lows seem that much more like failure, and sometimes are since I can't follow through on what I had started.
Sorry to hear about having to deal with the NHS. I'm American, but lived in London and had at least one unpleasant experience with them, too embarrasing to be broadcast here! :)
Anyhow, I am going to my doc tomorrow and am going to insist on a new eval, and a scrip for Topomax, which I really think may help level my moods and cease my binging. I'm also hoping the weight loss side effect will boost my spirits... I'm arming myself with copies of posts from this board and drug sites....
More later -
Liz
> yeah,
> sounds a bit like me. feeling a sense of panic and wanting to *cry* everytime the phone rings. Definitly with the high low yoyo. Feeling everything will be ok and great and then feeling as if breathing is the only activity I will ever do well at- and feeling pissed of at that!!
> Well my therapist thinks its a kind of an avoidant strategy - Setting up a perfect life/plan to cover for the appaling place I am then being extra pissed off when it all falls down. Not sure if I beleive her, but hey its a thought. As for meds the lousy NHS has only thrown me SRI's to no success. depression is my real bugbear-less than the anxiety.
> Hope I havent just discribed the water and this is some use.
> M
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