Posted by adamie on August 2, 2001, at 23:51:58
In reply to Re: I'm so sick of living like this, posted by Jady on August 2, 2001, at 23:20:38
> Else, I just started posting today. I wish I have a nickle for every time I felt just like you do right now. I just never seem to get a handle on things, and sometimes I feel like I go months with only hassles, fires to stamp out, bad news and any other number of negative things. I wake up and think if I just stay in bed at least it can't get worse. Today I'm not feeling that way. But my son left the house as soon as he saw I got a bill which indicated my last payment somehow wasn't received. Some days I can deal, but others this type of thing sends me off the deep end, drowning in self hatred. Some people are just always freaking happy! Usually I figure they're just too stupid to know how screwed up everything is. Or that I'm just a cursed, damaged loser. But then again, I'm afraid to be happy just because of meds. Doesn't that mean I'm just too medicated to see how screwed up everything is?
When you dont have depression or some other mental disorder which is the case with most people there is no reason to be unhappy, period. At least nothing drastic. Before my chemical imbalance I was always perfectly happy. So what if the world isn't perfect. You can make 'your' life perfect. It is simple. People are just ungrateful among other things. I myself will just have to wait until my depression goes away and I will be able to enjoy everything to the fullest extent once again.
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