Posted by Lini on September 9, 2001, at 9:23:07
In reply to Re: PLEASE, SOMONE HELP ME, I'M FALLING TO PIECES., posted by JohnL on September 9, 2001, at 6:28:20
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hey there andrewalot of people are reaching out to your post, as painful as it was for me to read because of how much it reminded me of times i have felt that terrible, it was also really important for me to reflect on the fact that i was there and now i am not. i just want to share that with you, there is another side that you can reach, even though it feels like an absolute impossibility right now. i am not going to tell you that there is a miraculous pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but there are moments of joy and love and peace (as Hallmark as that sounds) waiting for you in days to come. I spent a long time with passive thoughts of suicide - it wasn't that i wanted to kill myself, it was that i wouldn't have minded just dying. it way a terrible way to *live* and now that i am finaly dealing with my depression, i feel much more entitled and responsible to enjoy my unique life.
You say that you were working with abused children - is it possible that any of the heavy emotions associated with work are bringing up personal emotions for you? I don't know what your childhood was like, but alot of times we are subconsciously drawn to helping people deal with problems we haven't addressed on our own. as an abuse survivor, for a long time, that was my personal experience.
Andrew, there is alot of support for you, regardless of your situation, diagnosis, whatever. some people are going to suggest God, others the right med cocktail and here i am talking about childhood - my point is that there are people on this board who have lived through how you are feeling. while i am not a prozac poster child, i have gotten significantly "better" with meds and therapy. can you trust our (those on this board's) experiences enough to keep yourself alive? I hope so Andrew, all of us here are hoping you choose to stick around. most of us here have come up against that decision of whether or not to keep living and decided that it was worth it.
take care of you -
poster:Lini
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