Posted by kara lynne on January 9, 2003, at 13:30:38
In reply to Re: This is a sucky lifetime for me. » Pfinstegg, posted by Pfinstegg on January 9, 2003, at 3:40:39
Hi Pfinstegg,
Yes, it is very relevent to my situation. ECT treatment has always seemed really scary to me; even joking about it with my therapist made me feel suicidal (when he indicated I might be a good candidate for it-- *that* shocked me!). The idea of losing memory really bothers me-- it's been something I couldn't consider while going through school, but also it puts me into panic when I can't remember certain things that I always could. It makes me feel like I'm losing my mind, and I'm not OK until I can remember whatever bit of ridiculous minutae I've started obsessing about. Once I couldn't remember a song for about two months and couldn't let go of it until it finally came back to me. You sound so good though that it's encouraging, maybe I'd feel better and those things wouldn't bother me. Or of course there's the old joke about not remembering what you're unhappy about from the ECT. At any rate, I will be trying a few more things within the next couple of months, and I'll see where I am after that. But it is really nice to hear that you're doing so well-- it's hard to get those barbaric images out of my head about ECT. I'd love to hear how things progress for you. Thanks again.
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