Posted by Ilene on March 11, 2003, at 16:55:59
In reply to Re: FEAR-Why, Why, Why???? » Ilene, posted by Krissy P on March 11, 2003, at 15:00:05
>For the feelings of shame, that's what it sounds you feel, try not to feel that way.
Yes and no. I used to be more forthright. I found there are people who *think* they know what depression is, but they don't. I feel like I'm speaking a different language. It can be an effective conversation-ender.
I've told a couple of people I might be bipolar. I was actually kind of happy when I figured there was a strong likelihood of that, because it opened a new medicine chest.
I have a couple of other conditions (including chronic fatigue syndrome) that most people have never heard of, or sound like the disease du jour, or make as much sense as getting mercury poisoning from your fillings or cancer from the fluoride in your drinking water. I never thought cfs was a "real" disease until I was diagnosed with it, and even then it took me a couple of weeks to accept it. I found the case definition at the CDC website, which clinched it for me.
I've gone through periods of being so detached from what's going on around me that I feel like I'm about to become untethered and float off like a helium balloon. It is so hard to focus that I am unable to maintain a conversation. Even when I'm not coming untethered I get unfocused, tired, and spacy.
I'm getting bogged down. Later.
---I.
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