Posted by NThompson on June 19, 2003, at 0:52:38
In reply to Re: PDoc -Argh! » NThompson, posted by CherC68 on June 18, 2003, at 21:58:08
Hey Cher,
You know, I grew up on a farm and I like more of the "Simple" things in life. So having the brand new "big " house and all the fringe benefits that goes along with it, well that would just scare the living hell out of me! Unfortunately, the bigger house usually means a bigger house payment. Fancy car...big payment. I would freak out. I already have anxiety attacks will the bills I have and hell, my house we bought 4 1/2 years ago and paid only $119,000.00 (which I do freak out about the mortgage payment a whole $917.00 a month!). I just found out that the same house down the street is selling for $278,500.00!!!!! Talk about equity! But what I am getting at is I think the anxiety will show up in strange ways. You are use to not having the money to do things right? A crappy apartment you said and being a single mom probably meant that the rent was on the more inexpensive, but still having a tight budget meant you stressed out about it. So your situation has changed and you see the money that you're putting out for things, house, windows, pool etc... Maybe your mind is still programed that your broke and you are getting the anxiety attacks over it.
There is this song from Teri Clark called "I liked it better when we had it bad" she liked her life better when they were flat broke and all they had was a burning love. Money is not the key to happiness. It does help having it, but having things doesn't cover up the depression.
If you get yourself the right meds and help, you will find that you will start feeling better. Learn to love you first, then when that happens it won't bother you if your a Legal Sec. or a wai tress. Because you will be happy with your life. And my opinion on working part-time, that is great if you can do it! You have a 13 year old son, he's entering the teen years, he is going to need you to be there for him and know what he is doing. Who, what, where, why and what time. He'll grow up to be a better man for it. You showing him values and giving him your time... that is the most precious thing you could
ever give him!As far as your husband is concerned, aren't they great when you've married the right one. They will stand by you and just give you love. Try to relax while he is gone. I had to sleep on the couch a few times with the TV on just to get through the night! Just think, he's out there to make the money so you don't have to worry. So that you can take the time to get better! So take the time and try to get better. If you can be a single mom, you CAN overcome the depression. You have to be a hell of a strong person to raise a child on your own! I KNOW I couldn't do it!!!!!! I envy your strength. I have a wonderful husband and 2 wonderful children, own a home, have lots of great friends tons of loving family members and still I'm here in this support group because I was so depressed that I tried to kill myself. What the HELL was I thingking????
Don't feel guilty about being depressed. You didn't want to be. It just happened that way. You will get better. But feeling guilty will only make you worst.
Take care and Bless you,
Breathe in and Breathe out. You can do it.
Nyia
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