Posted by KimberlyDi on July 16, 2003, at 8:25:09
In reply to Re: Anxiety, lack of energy, panic attcks, depr., posted by Susy on July 15, 2003, at 19:51:49
Sweet Susy,
Love and a feeling of security are 2 important needs, not unimportant wants (a cute pair of shoes in the store window that you wish you could buy is a *want*.) I've lived in fear also of a husband who changed the locks on the house when he went into a rage and he wouldn't give me my stuff or let me in until he calmed down days later. I feel helpless, vulnerable, and afraid. Psychobabble helps. Very nice people to talk to. Effexor also helped tremendously. But a good anti-depressant doesn't cure everything, not when you are living in a bad situation. Good luck! Kim
> About my neighbor it is a long story, but It hurt me a lot because I was the Manager here and at the beginning she pretended to be my friend and came to my home, once she knew all about us then she went ahead and stabbed me in the back. That never happen to me before. And I swear to God that I didn't make anything bad to her. Then the owner believed all her complaints and now she is the Manager and she yells at my children everytime she wants and that hurt me even more.
> I think she doesn't like us because we are a family and she lives alone, but, I offered to her my house, my friends, my familiy and she rejected me. I know she writes me letters and do all this because she wants us to move out, but Thanks God that is not official yet, I haven't received any 3 or 30 days notice.But I lived always affraid that will happen sooner or later.I know what you say thay we can stay here for 3 more months but then I would have an eviction in my credit.
> Besides rents are very expensive. And why do we have to move only because she doesn't like us?
> We haven't done anything to her. But I live with this fear one day I will receive this 3 or 30 days notice and she will be laughing happy while I will have to see where I can go with my children specially now that I am not working.
> About this guy, I gave him a lot of opportunities I allways told him I needed somebody to treat me with love and respect and he did exactly the opposite, to be honest, I don't want to see him anymore. He really makes me feel very confused, he is always looking for something to fight and he is able to be arguing for neverending hours and then blame everything on me and said that I said what he did say, if I continue like this I am going to really get crazy. I feel very sad because I realized love is not the perfect feeling I thought it was. But now, I don't even think about love anymore, all I want is to feel better again, and work, and think about the future, maybe somewhere far from here. But also, I have lost trust in people and that is not me again, I always loved to have lots of friends. But yet, I don't want to suffer more.
> I make it long again eh?
> If you don't get tired I'll keep on telling you in the next one.
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> Big Hugs for you Mercedes
> Susy
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