Posted by MB on July 30, 2003, at 13:31:48
In reply to Re: please define derealization, posted by DissTired on July 30, 2003, at 2:00:09
> My question to anyone who may know the answer is this. Why would lighting be such an issue? Malls, libraries (flour. lighting), and dusk are big triggers of derealization for me. I also sometimes get it at the restaurant where I am now working.I don't know, but my first experience with "derealization" (I guess not "depersonalization", if I now understand the difference) was in seventh grade, and I think it was triggered by the fluorescent lighting. I had PTSD from being teased and hit for so many years in elementery school, and I think the fear and the *lighting* brought this on...I couldn't deal with being in school, so I turned it into a dream.
Also, have you ever noticed that when you dream (at least for me) about familiar places, sometimes they are identical to the waking version of the place except for one thing: the lighting. Sometimes in dreams, the shadows are weird, or the angles aren't square in a room...it's almost a perfect mental facimile of the real world, but there are a few glitches.
Well, when a lightbulb in the house burns out, and the familiar shadow pattern of the living foom is altered, sometimes it will toss me into an almost panicky feeling of derealization. I think because it is so dreamlike to have those small details (that are usually constant) thrown out of whack.
MB
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