Posted by rianny on September 24, 2003, at 23:11:25
In reply to Re: ADD/SocialPhobia/OCD, posted by matthhhh on September 24, 2003, at 19:40:14
yes, I guess I have some BDD, but about my eyes...I don't know how to name or describe it.
I've had this "dry eye syndrome" for about 5 years, and when this started first time, I was kind of embarrassed and panic at school all day because my tears came out because of pain and thought people would think I'm crying.
After that happened, all these symptoms started.
If I think now, I already had anxiety disorder and OCD since before that stupid "dry eye" problem. However, I think the "dry eye" thing triggered those disorders to be much more stronger and be conscious about them.
Anyway, after that, I try to notice where I'm looking at or how eye muscles move.
When I talk to ppl in face-to-face situation, I have body tension, too. The most annoying thing is I don't know where to look. I can do eye contact, but I don't know when to get out or get in. I mean normal ppl, when they talk, do eye contact for a few seconds and quit, and back again...but I cannot do that naturally.
I found out today that I really don't notice my eyes when I try to notice other things. For example, today, when I walk at school, I was thinking about my steps, and I noticed my eyes move naturally. So, I think it's ok when I become unconsicous about the body part. I'll keep practicing this kind of stuff.
I'd like to know what those herbal stimulants are. I hope they are not illegal. Anyway, I'll try this Nardil first, and think about others later...at least after a few months since Nardil takes long time to kick in, and I'm only on very low dosage at the moment.
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