Posted by Dog on December 10, 2003, at 17:32:32
In reply to Surreal, that about sums that up!!, posted by DeeJay on December 10, 2003, at 16:23:49
i really like the way you word things and it is a real pleasure to "talk" with someone who has had similar experiences... you are truly a gifted communicator... i love words, but i don't often express my feelings very well... the way you described a kind of peripheral vision: i'd like to further explore that in myself in that i think i'm that way also... would wellbutring do that to me like Paxil did to you? at one time i was in grad. school and had ambitions, but once i began medication, it seems i lost a lot of direction ... i am glad you have a good career and that you are happy in it...its very refreshing to hear someone has such fortune... i am very frustrated in mine and i feel like i am stuck..i sometimes seem to be just existing... there seems to be a "numbness" to my life... its almost like the medication has taken away some of who i am or who i was meant to be... not like i'm totally a zombie, but maybe sort of like one at times because i don't have the aspirations i once had...like some of my energy was taken away with it...its hard to describe (i wish i had your ability to express myself) i seem to cry alot and cry easily too.
on the other hand, i think one of my big problems is i am too in-grown... i am too self-obsessed, if that makes any sense...i need to get out of myself and stop obsessing about my problems... i need to help others...volunteer work might be a big help to me...
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