Posted by katia on December 14, 2003, at 15:17:37
In reply to Re: Quit the Topamax?, posted by Karen_kay on December 14, 2003, at 9:38:28
Hi Karen,
> There is a great book you can buy called "The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide" It is really good and straight forward.**I've got that book. It is good.
> I don't rapid cycle. I was depressed once for about 2 years straight. Now that sucked. Rapid cycling doesn't seem like it would be much fun at all.
Nope. None at all. My main thing has been chronic depression. i can't remember a time except those two distinct periods of hypomania (each lasted about six months in 1988 and 1991) that I wasn't depressed or in some agitated mixed state.
> Have you been dx? Are you scared to go to a doctor?
** yes I have. I'm on Lamictal now at 200mg and 11ish grams of fish oil a day. I'm sliding down the shute though. The Lam. is not holding. I see my pdoc on the 19th and possibly going on Lithium to enhance the effects of Lam. and to also bring in it's own qualities. I'm SCARED TO DEATH of developing a permanent hypothyroid because of Lithium tho'. And I hear that the weight gain happens often.
I'm sick to death of all of this. Depression and feeling like hell and having my life in shambles and no medication working and worrying about side effects...blah blah blah...I envy the person who goes to sleep easily, sleeps the night through, has a stable mood, (and that's enough right there), but plus, has a fulfilling creative career, has a healthy relationship, and has a home and children.
I have seen of such people. I've hear that they are out there - amazing huh? I"m sick of being tormented. There's only so much a person can take. This is no life.It's how I"m feeling today. Oh did I say it's how I've felt ALL my life???
I"m coming to the end of my energy with this trial and error and with this constant state of torture.
So there you go a real letter without any embellishments.BTW - anyone out there on Lamictal get very dizzy and nauseous at 200mg?
katia
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