Posted by Karen_kay on January 2, 2004, at 17:27:24
In reply to re: the benefits of topamax » Murphia, posted by headachequeen on January 1, 2004, at 13:22:46
if the manic part, the creative part of me is to be quashed, then I am no longer the creative person and there goes the writer, the artist... and where am I then...
*That bothered me at first as well. I too am very creative. I hope to create documentaries, and my major is telecommunications currently. But, I've realized that I'm even more creative being stable. My ideas are currently coming at a more consistent rate. Though I don't have them coming at a "heavy flow" for a week at a time, I don't find that I have as many mental blocks for months at a time. I also find that due to my stability, I'm never short on creative ideas or endeavors. Every so often I do come across a mental block, but that is fairly common. And it doesn't last for moths at a time, due to depression. I think that my ideas for projects are some of the most creative and best put together (yes, I am biased but I try to also seperate that and look at it objectively) as a whole. I noticed that some of the projects I created while manice where just frantic. Fantastic, yes, but most certainly lacking. Now that medication has stabilized me, I still am very creative and I have the state of mind to follow through and see the project for what it is, not what I want it to be.
I think the key is finding a medication that works for you, without completely numbing your mind. Topamax is what is currently working for me. Not to say that won't change in the future, I hope not. But, currently it is working well. And I'm just as creative as before. Only now I can finish a project that actually makes sense. Not just to me, but also to the viewer. And that's wonderful!
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