Posted by Karen_kay on January 2, 2004, at 22:30:02
In reply to Re: really worried about past selenium use » Karen_kay, posted by headachequeen on January 2, 2004, at 21:41:11
I used to be the exact same way. I couldn't understand how someone could just sit and watch a movie without also reading a book or without getting up at least 12 times to do the laundry, walk the dog, paint your nails, ect. Just watching a movie used to be so boring, unless I was depressed. But, when I was depressed I couldn't even leave the couch unless I had to let the dog out or use the restroom. That's the only way I left the couch. Unless I was going to bed of course. Now things have changed. I'm still a bit fidgetty granted. I still can't watch a movie straight through, but I'm not up and moving all the time. I get the jist of what's going on at least.
I too am selfish, though not an only child. But with being stabilized on medication my creative projects are able to be more whole. They aren't as frantic. I just think it depends a great deal on finding the right cocktail for your chemistry. That makes all the difference in the world. (Though I'm sure I'm not telling you anything you don't already know) I'm not quite sure what your dx is. You have seizures, is that correct? As well as bipolar disorder, right? Sorry, this thread has been going on forever and I'm a bit absent minded :)!
But I really haven't noticed a decline in creativity from taking medication. If anything my creativity has flourished. The medication has just helped me to be able to better finish my projects and work at a steady pace, rather than a rapid and frantic one. I look back at some older work that I completed during manic phases and I just don't even understand how my professors could have understood what I was thinking at the time. I understand what I was trying to convey and the idea, it just didn't come across the way I would have liked. It's a shame too. The ideas are fantastic, the quality is just lacking. Unsteady camera work, poor lighting, ect. Solid ideas, poor quality. Great ideas, it just didn't come together.
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