Posted by fluffy on January 8, 2004, at 17:27:08
In reply to Lithium » fluffy, posted by katia on January 8, 2004, at 15:39:50
Hey Katia--
You seem better today. Your grammar and organization of thoughts was a bit off a couple of days ago, and today it seems more together. Yeah--Lithium was a bit too potent a brew for me, too. Too bad. Seems like it would be such a pleasant, simple solution (it being a very traditional cure).
Today I feel_________. I think it's funny about your mood chart--not knowing where your mood fits. (it's like there should be another blank that says "drugged out of my mind". That's what I'd fill in today i think.
i don't know what's up with my limbs. For whatever reasons, when I try a new mood stabilizer, I've had these really physical side effects...heavyness in my limbs, looseness of my grip, stiffness in my hands...this is scary!!
Today, after the first depakote dose, my hands feel like they've fallen asleep (or just after--they feel heavy and uncoordinated). It really scares me. I don't want to tell my doctor until it is really a problem. I really don't want to discontinue another drug so soon. So we'll see if this clears up in a week or so. How long does the full dose of Depakote take to build up in your system? Isn't it faster than most mood stabilizers?Other than the heavy hands--I'm depressed as sh*t. I had to take a crying break today instead of a lunch break. All I could think about is why my doctors would even want to keep me alive--and how cruel it is to even do that to someone who is suffering. I've been pretty f*uckin' depressed this week. I just want to be better, but I'm tired of suffering. I have intermittently thought of going to the hospital. But really, I don't know what difference it would make for me right now. I just know my thoughts are really negative right now, and I'm not functioning so well. I feel like "Hal" in 2001 Space Odyssey when the astronauts start to disconnect his wires..."I can feel it".
I'm sure in two days I'll be chipper and bouncing around the house, cleaning and sewing, busy as a bee. This is so confusing.
Thanks for your posts Katia. I really need a buddy who can handle hearing this crap.
you take care, too. hugs and more hugs,
Katy
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