Posted by SandyWeb on January 22, 2004, at 19:02:23
In reply to Re: Pseudo Amphets., posted by thinkfast on January 22, 2004, at 5:37:38
Hi again!
I don't think I'm going to ask my doctor for stimulants. The last time I saw her, she practically yelled at me that I was a walking poly-pharmacy. Then she began telling me how I would be going into my friends' medicine cabinets and popping a pill here and a pill there. Needless to say, I was shocked and humiliated when she spoke that way to me. But I have the problem of not being able to stand up for myself. So I just said that I wouldn't do that. But she acted so unprofessionally, and I'm embarrassed enough that I'm on any meds at all. Does she think that I enjoy coming in every two months to get a fresh new supply of pills to help me cope with life?? I feel like a total loser, but I put on a brave little face as if I'm doing great. *sigh*
In fact, I'm only on 4 meds: 60mg Celexa, 1600mg Neurontin, 15mg Remeron (for sleep and to reverse the diarrhea from Celexa), and Inderal LA 160mg (to stop the high blood pressure from the Celexa).
Even though I know stimulants would help me....and I REALLY could use the help with my focus right now because I'm a 38-year old full-time University student.....I would feel like a drug-seeking addict if I asked for a stimulant or even tried to tell her that I think I have ADD. I made the mistake of admitting to doing crank years ago, and now she won't even give me Ativan. *sigh*
I guess I'll continue to self-medicate with the pseudoephedrine. It helps when I'm starting my day, but I find that I crash really badly in the afternoon. I don't like that at all. And I don't know if taking the psuedoephedrine will be dangerous to me in the long run.
I wish I had a back-bone.
Sandy
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