Posted by cubbybear on February 26, 2004, at 23:55:37
In reply to Re: My suicidal ideation » Ilene » cubbybear, posted by Ilene on February 26, 2004, at 9:29:05
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> You're right, depression can't be cured. That frightens me very much.No, this isn't something to get frightened or upset about. There are countless physical as well as mental infirmities which can never be cured. Diabetes can't be cured; one must always take insulin to maintain the proper level of blood sugar. My mother has a thyroid problem in which the gland is chronically hypoactive so she has to take thyroid extract. Try to think in terms of our being human beings in which nobody and nothing is perfect; so sometimes, we have to provide a boost or supplementary chemicals to stay on an even keel.
I can't do much for myself until I get the leg up from meds, and they haven't been working. I'm too sick to work and I have no social life. If I felt better I would volunteer or take a class in order to meet people.
Hopefully, your Marplan will kick in before long and after it does, you'll be amazed at all the activies you'll just naturally want to do. When I was severely depressed, I got to a point in which all I could do was sit on my bed and stare into space, practically catatonic. Within a month or two after starting the Parnate, I was actually back at work and running around doing everything I normally like to do.
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> I go to yoga once or twice a week--there's a studio about 2 blocks from here. I try to get out of the house, even just to go to the post office, every day.That's wonderful!--more than even I could do back in Jan. and Feb. 2002 when I was badly depressed.
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> Considering the amount of time I have on my hands, I'm less functional than you think. I don't do too much with my son because much of the time I can't maintain a conversation.On the other hand, I think you're better than you're giving yourself credit for. Some people who are badly depressed can't even START a conversation with people.
I manage to get food on the table most nights and do the laundry before we run out of socks or underwear. Sometimes that's all.
Again, try to give yourself credit for doing these things. Having your son home is a great blessing, since your commitment to his welfare is a much-needed diversion. (I lve alone and being alone and depressed can be deadly.) Be extra thankful you have him now, no matter what he does or challenges he poses
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> My pdoc/therapist called this morning. She's very concerned about me. She might want to contact my husband. She wants to see me tomorrow. I'm grateful for her concern, but I'm still suffering.Be VERY glad that you've got a concerned doctor. My pdoc here in Thailand--who I was compelled to dump-- seemed like a great guy at the beginning but eventually proved to be incapable of helping me through the emergencies. He was anything but concerned and didn't want me pestering him outside of our scheduled appointments. He'd underplay my depression and blame my personality traits instead. Having an understanding, caring and competent dr. is something you really have to be thankful for.
I hope that all I'm saying is helpful and not hurtful or discouraging.
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