Posted by utopizen on April 13, 2004, at 0:53:15
In reply to Re: Ritalin v. Provigil - utopizen, posted by Bill LL on April 12, 2004, at 9:48:37
> I noticed in your response that you are a student. I'm very impressed with how you wrote your response. It is very clear and well written.
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> I have always had writing problems although I'm not as bad as I used to be.
>My 9th grade history teacher once returned a paper I had submitted him, and jokingly said, "you sound like an 80 year old man." Ever since then I've tried to work on using present tense, simplifying my sentences, etc., and noticed professors prefer that these days over long and rambling sentences.
I'm a writer's personality, and it sometimes shocks me that simply postings I write or E-Mails I send out impress others... I generally only expect that sort of response from a professor after I write a paper (I'm an English major).
It's great to articulate myself, since not getting my ADD dx'd until I was 18 led myself to settle for what is literally a 5th grade math level. If it weren't for the fact that verbal IQ is the only noticable trait you can get out of someone when you meet them, I'd be in a pretty bad situtation.
The only thing I hate about my ADD, truly, is my inability to overcome procrastation. It's added so much stress this semester, as I have two incompletes that have turned F's, and must write papers for these two courses on the hopes I can charm my way into getting both professors to correct my grade and not fail out of school right before senior year hits.
Thanks for the complement. Unfortunately, I think it's my eloquence that distractedd my parents from taking my inattentive problems seriously through high school... once I turned 18, I just did some damage control and went to a psychiatrist pronto.
Sadly, now I've got a lot of depression over my incompletes, making it harder to finish them... ak!
My p-doc once asked, after a year of seeing him for social anxiety and ADD, "if I was a writer." I was like, "huh?" but then realized, "oh yeah, writer, yeah, I'm an English major, it's the only thing I know how to do well." I suspect he saw Transplanation at the time, because I recently saw it and it's all about a writer coping with his social anxiety.
Now if I can only calm myself down to go to sleep despite the looming work not yet started, yet due tomorrow...
Now if I can only I can stop my obsessional thoughts, which will plague me into feeling compelled to send off emails and organize old emails rather than go to the library to get the books I needed to get to do work tonight...
I got another laptop off eBay for $500, hopefully this will help me feel more liberated from my iBook by allowing me to store most stuff on the iBook and use the Powerbook g4 as my library laptop.
Sounds crazy, but I get so obsessed with stupid things on my computer I setup a server on it to trade files, a firewire drive to store/backup files, and on top of these irrational excuses for not taking it out more often, I often simply feel sucked into whatever stupid silly thing I'm doing on my computer at the time... even using disk utilities at times. It's horrible. I'd rather simply have a spare laptop sanctioned away in my bag that is good to go whenever I need to use the library, rather than stare at this glaring magnet of my obsessional thoughts.
I've never once done a paper that wasn't an all-nighter, and I'm cujrrently a junior. It's no fun, I really hope Straterra plays around with a lot of gunk up in my brain, especially the obsessional thinking I never really thought much of until my therapist pointed it out to me. (I assumed you needed to have behavioral obsessions in order to have obsessional thoughts).
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