Posted by Caper on June 4, 2004, at 7:01:02
In reply to Today my sister told me ..., posted by Angel Girl on June 4, 2004, at 3:42:50
Hi Angel Girl,
I couldn't help responding to your post. My mother has said things before during brief "well" periods that made me cry- things like "I feel like I have my girl back"- then I'd get messed up again and feel so bad about hurting her.
I also have a child and to hear him say, "I miss you so much when you're in the hospital, I take your pillow, spray your perfume on it, and hug it when I sleep"- well, that breaks my heart. But even at 10 years old he tells me, "I miss you a lot, but I don't mind if you have to stay awhile if it makes you better."
I'm not sure if this is your first time with mood trouble or what the diagnosis is. BUT, although I know our type of problems are chronic and may tend to return. My point is that I reached a place when I was 23 that was _so_ low for _so_ long I really didn't think things could change for the better. But they did. I got a good doctor, an awesome therapist, and graduated from the school of my dreams, then went on to law school. There I started a slip that hasn't yet let up.
But my point is that there are times when it does get better- in my case for several years and for others one psychological crisis doesn't necessarily mean more further down the road.
Please don't beat yourself up over this. I know I don't always follow my own advice, but try to treat yourself (in your thoughts) as kindly and as understandingly as you would your sister or best friend if they had your problems. You didn't sign up for these problems, they just happened. Do what you know you should (see doc and therapist or whatever) and let your sister know you miss the old days too and that you love her and are trying to get better.
Hope this helps a little.
Caper
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